I committed to November’s National Health Month blog, thirty blogs in thirty days, however at the time I didn’t foresee the dismantling of my computer which has been out of commission since last Thursday. I’m now in the process of creating, uploading, reprogramming, adding, deleting on a completely new hard drive. I’ve done my best at staying up on the blogs however over the weekend it just wasn’t possible.
The computer challenge, I feel is similar to the healing process. Some days you are on the map, truly feeling better, there’s hope and light visible. You commit going the extra mile, changing routines, adding vitamins, eliminating foods, rethinking old habits, cleaning out clutter, walking in nature, only to slide back into pain and discomfort, frustration and unhappiness. The commitment to the final destination is there, deeply seated, however life has other plans and you end up on a side road for awhile. I know this feeling all too well; it was a constant companion for far too long. What happens then is the lingering undertone of positivity lined with doubt, the ‘Okay, but what’s next?’ feeling. Sucks, but it’s true. We begin to doubt we’ll ever rise above the fear, our nose above the waves.
This is where we are tested sometimes beyond what we think we can endure. (I feel that frustration with my computer (wink, wink) – remember having a sense of humor is what will light the path home). We have to pull ourselves up by the bootstraps, dig deeply within our reservoirs of self love, forgiveness and appreciation and keep on moving. If it helps to pull out the map to show the path back to center, then do so. That map can be a multiple of sources – Spirit, family, friends, doctors, ministers, your pets, music, nature, organic foods, vitamins, homeopathy, flower and gem essences and sometimes even wine. It helps us relax and unwind discovering the humor we’ve kept so tightly buried.
Resolve is also a keen part in moving back to center, the center of ourselves, the core of health and vitality, to the ‘us’ we came here to be. This is truly the healing path of self discovery. We have to stay resolved to the process, committed to going the extra mile, to listen to our inner voices that cry NO! or Yes! when necessary.
Resolve also helps displace the fear. When we are focused on a target, our thoughts directed firmly on the end goal, fear has little space to take root. Fear amplifies the negative response in our bodies, destruction of healthy systems the outcome. Work daily keeping resolve at the forefront of your thinking. As you retire in the evening you truly will feel the difference in how your mind and body relax.
I had to finally say ‘yes’ to letting go of my old computer and saying yes to the long process of being totally organized on a new one. Not my favorite thing. The journey is too complicated, frustrating and out of my league of knowledge. Rather like the journey into wholeness again. We have to learn new ideas, thoughts, and processes to enable a new paradigm to take hold. It is a learning curve for sure, however it does hold rewards at the end. Just remember to keep the map in your pocket, a (flash) light (the vision) in your hand and a smile on your lips.
Cosmic sunshine to you!
Great post again Candia. I always know that when my laptop does what yours did, it means that a mind-set has shifted. I see it as a good thing, if not inconvenient. I remember having downloaded lots of ‘death’ songs when I was suicidal, and I’d also put them on to my mp3 player. When we went to Nepal, I had experiences that forced a shift in my consciousness, and while there, I dropped the mp3 player in the waterfall and so my death music was trashed (!) and when I got home, my laptop crashed. The technicians recovered a lot of files, except they said the music files couldn’t be retrieved ‘for some reason’!!!
Yaz, what a story. And you are so correct. There is always something needing cleaning up in our lives. My computer anymore is such an extension of who I am, it is no surprise if it is ‘off’ too. Good news I’m now writing from a new desktop. Still have a ton to do to get it to where I need it however it’s fast, and ready for new information. Thanks so much for sharing. I can already tell you and I could sit for days telling stories.
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